Sunday, September 30, 2012

Just thought about this while studying for maths. Actually it's more related to physics- moments HAHA. Ok fine, i was thinking about how my life is in balance now. Don't feel like i'm in a mud hole or exactly living in a glamorous/perfect kind of life, but at least i'm contented and satisfied :) Yes how bad can my life be when i have God by my side right?

This was what i didn't realise 2 years back when i decided to keep my distance from him. I have plenty of time to do my things, score good grades, attain leadership positions, go out for dates and basically having fun. Yet, something was lacking. I didn't have someone to talk to whenever i need, someone to give me comfort, give me strength and take control of my life. I had everything, but i lacked joy.

Was reminded that if i place God in the center of everything, he will be able to balance everything out for me. Imagine jesus being in the middle of a plate. If one side gets heavier, he will lighten it; when one sides get lighter, he will add pressure to it. It just depends on whether we are willing to allow him to do so. That's how awesome he is!! Awed by how God speaks to me even when i'm studying for my exams.

Went for service yesterday, like finally!! Had an awesome dinner with famz & popo @Sakae sushi too! Lunch date with Jess today and we had gongcha! (yay my life is so complete)

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

what we could have been, 6:05 AM.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

I'm not studying now as you can see. haha ok no just merely taking a break and chillax for awhile. My brain is not tuned into chem today and i'm gonna be dead if it doesn't co-operate with me till 5.15pm this evening.

Don't really have a good feeling about this, and my tummy's feeling weird since last night. Wonder what had triggered it but i hope it doesn't affect my performance later!
Bad stomach causing great discomfort pffft.

Shall take a nice shower and recharge myself for chem. Ciaos!!!!!

what we could have been, 7:38 PM.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Taking a break from studying now. I feel so unmotivated today, 80% of the zest was used up yesterday. The schedule for promos is actually not bad, two days of studying, two days of paper, two days of studying and papers again. It's evenly spread out and i feel so relieved i don't have chinese to worry about.

But still....... ok actually i know why i feel this way today. Shouldn't be bothered by it but yes it's affecting me. Nonetheless, i MUST see improvement in my promo results!!!! Shall aim for a S for econs and a C for chem, yes gotta study reallyyy hard.

I can't afford to give up, and i refuse to without putting up a tough fight. Go me go me!!!!

Lastly, Happy birthday ahwong!!!!!!!! muackssss ♥♥♥♥♥

I should just go to my parents' room to study. A new environment which i'll probably study better there :)

what we could have been, 9:46 PM.

Saturday, September 22, 2012

I'm glad everything's over now. It's like the calm seas after the raging storms. Ok 'raging storms' sounds exaggerated. But i really don't like going to wakes, especially when you're part of the 'main' family. Although it was quite a happy occasion, since there are 4 generations of descendents sending my great grandmother off. Love the company of my cousins, we kept camwhoring cos my uncle wants to make the process into a photo album (i have no idea why!! But it is said to be a great blessing for people to live over 90 years old. So it is perfectly fine to take pictures)

Stayed over at my uncle's house on friday night again for convenience. Brought back alot of memories while i was lying on the mattress before i slept. hahaha i remembered the times when the 6 of us (cousins + my sis) would stay over at my uncle's house when we were very young, and all of us were sucking our milk bottles together at the living room! Some lying on the mattress, others on the sofa, while our eyes would be glued to some cartoon show.

When we got a little older, we would play Xbox together, bullying the youngest (boy) cousin HAHA since we are all girls, and going swimming every evening until our fingers are all crumpled. And yes, we are all young adults now, ok most of us.

Going out for lunch/ dinner + shopping are my favourite dates with my (girl) cousins, since it is really hard to find a time where all of us can stay over at my uncle's place.

♥♥♥♥♥

Was super stressed last night. Spent only 2-3h studying from fri till the whole of sat. Really worried about promos, worried that i won't do well. Supposed to study 4 solid hours in macs but i left halfway to meet my parents, popo, brandon and bryan for Swensens dinner. Don't know if i made the right decision to meet them. But my heart really wish to eat a dinner with my parents since they have been away at my uncle's place for two weeks. And i know i wouldn't have such chances anymore after they leave for Germany.

So for now......... i'm still in a state of worry.

God does not move when you struggle, but he moves when you pray.

what we could have been, 7:35 PM.

Monday, September 17, 2012

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed that he was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow
you, you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when
I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:

"My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

written by Carolyn Joyce Carty

Had many speed bumps in life recently, it's all so 'thrilling' but i'll trust in the one that would carry me through this.

Dear great grandmother, i pray that heaven will be a wonderful place for you. Take care and ily. :)

what we could have been, 4:33 AM.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

It's been a tough weekend, having many home affairs recently. Glad that mum and ahgong are recovering from their opt although ahgong's re-warded back to Khoo Teck Puat and mum's recuperating at popo's house. Everyone's getting old and their bodies are getting weaker by the day.

Ahgong's hand didn't use to shake when he drinks water. Breaks my heart to see his hand trembling as he lifts up the cup these few days, though i'm still thankful that his opt wasn't life-threatening.

Had many first times this week doing household chores. I tried doing the laundry and vacuumed the whole floor. What an accomplishment! Jess mopped the floor yesterday too. Ok it sounds rather retarded, but i've never done it before cos there's 4 adults under one roof. We wouldn't encounter a situation whereby jess and i have to do the whole load of chores by ourselves. So yesterday was the first time we had the whole house to ourselves and it felt so good!!!!!

Maybe we should live like this permanently hahaha

Anyway some pics from the JCeast whatsapp group. So amusing

Thank God for my family :)

what we could have been, 11:27 PM.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Birthday surprise for Vione was a success! ok kind of failed, but overall it was still not bad. 7 girls standing outside her bathroom with a lighted chocolate cake, waiting for her to wash up.

Wouldn't it be a pleasant surprise?? :)

Me, aud, vione, kaymin, qiyin, berenice, nerissa, charmaine

Vione, qiyin, audrey & me

Pic taken when everybody's stomach was so bloated

Happy early 17th Vione!!!

♥♥♥♥♥

Overslept today, how timely. Typed in the wrong whatsapp convo group which Vione was inside too. We had so many hiccups this morning and everyone was so panicky HAHA. Berenice took a cab from Whitesands to my house before we make our way down to Vione's house. Became the earliest to reach in the end hahaha

Mahjong + rock band was so much fun. Had our sumptuous lunch @ Seoul garden, Marina Square. blah blah blah..... home! Initially it mattered alot to me that one whole day would be taken up, but it was all worth it in the end because Vione did enjoyed her day, and my heart was unexpectedly enlightened after talking to Charthum :)

what we could have been, 7:51 AM.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Studied with nana and bk downtown today whoo satisfied my mushroom swiss craving. Now i am craving for subway....... haha mum's right. My cravings are always revolving around the same few.

Hmm not really looking forward to the next few days...... ):

Oh on the side note, i really hope to get a personalised camera again. Jessphoebewoon lost my purple one donkey years ago O:

Woop yes i finished reading my 40 day course of 'purpose-driven life' this morning!!
When we weave the weak strands of our lives together, a rope of great strength is created.

what we could have been, 7:36 AM.

Monday, September 3, 2012

Angst angst angst roar i am super angst now. It's just this small little thing that sparked off the whole chain of 'angst' reaction. Pfft thank god there's no one around me now so i don't have the chance to say anything nasty.

): ): ): ok but apart from that, i enjoyed studying at macs today, both morning and night. Met Sijing at macs in the morning. He's forever there so he shall be my new studying khaki :) Really glad that i'm still close to Yong Hui and him ever since primary one. True budz that i will stick with for life.

Step up revolution with Jerome in the afternoon! I preferred the previous one though, but nonetheless, the dance moves & the defined muscles of the dancers never fail to amaze me :)

Ok i feel much better now after mentioning the happier things that happened today. Shall finish up with pw and off to bed. Bye!

what we could have been, 8:41 AM.

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Peixuan, Denise, Yunrong & me!

Gay buddy Huiping!

She was wearing NYJC's squash shirt! Really have the feeling that i will see her during A'div next year and probably gonna compete against her school too. That will be quite........

okay anyway, gosh i was reading my sec 1/2 blog posts. I was so lame!!!!!! REALLY. Everyone have their childish past, and yes it is so true. I seemed to be super high everytime i blog, and i did those quizzes with many many questions. 'Would you go on a date with #7 friend? What was your first impression about #3 friend?'

oh my, i feel so embarrassed.

Ok at least those spastic moments are over, and now i've matured by 732487324839438 times.

Went for service with Chupong today :) The start of the new series of 'Spirit Empowered'

The race to be a leader is crowded, but the field is wide open for those willing to be servants.

what we could have been, 7:05 AM.