Monday, October 29, 2012

I just got to make myself feel a little better. ☺

what we could have been, 6:56 AM.

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Had everything with fries with Weilee today!!! ☺

My first time and it was quite nice! A bit pricey though. I don't think it is value for money even though the fish is not bad.

Met Chupong earlier at tam to satisfy her Long John's craving before meeting Weilee for brunch at bugis. Had J1s district meet + dinner at Quest. Phone battery went flat since 11.30am and i was penniless from 2.45pm onwards. HAHA such a cui day. Nonetheless, it was a God-filled day and i know my fellow J1s much better. Baking tgt tmr!!!!!! ☺

what we could have been, 9:24 AM.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDREY!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

Coach was in a good mood today because he had a slice of cake to eat before training starts ☺ Cake works wonder on coach, so easily coaxed HAHA.

Met up with Jerome after a crazy session of PT. Suicides and all- they were so tiring! Good thing i ate my fill before going for training. It's always nice to meet up with friends cos they will make you feel loved. Met up with Weiyeat yesterday for late lunch + dessert + teaching. He took so long to finish his porridge cos he had his wisdom tooth extracted. My green milktea from each a cup was so awesome!!!! ☺ Oh yes, not forgetting the recree trip down to Punggol Waterway with Aud, Livia, Elaine, Sihui and Sharlyn. Exhausting but a good bonding session ☺

My stomach's not feeling well now. Hope i don't get the runs halfway though the night again. Going out with my class girls tmr!! I didn't know friday was a public holiday until my mum told me during dinner. I shall make that day productive.

Oh yes, Eun Sue was so kind to me yesterday!! She gave me her cushion laptop cover to sleep on in the library cos i dozed off in front of the screen while editting OP slides. Awwwww super touched. God's sent angel yeah ☺ I'm so blessed

what we could have been, 7:28 AM.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Nike Run with Rosa yesterday!!! ☺ Happy thing, and we ran without stopping in 1h 10mins. I improved by 20mins as compared to Standard charter's run 2 years ago! even we ourselves couldn't believe that we didn't stop. And good thing, i didn't experience much muscle ache ☺

Had squash today, felt quite disappointed. I did make an effort to practise (for the first or second time since the beginning of time) but coach made it sound like no one practised at all. i bet some of the girls did too! ): Haiz. I felt like there's no point practising. My strokes were slightly better today, but coach was just so oblivious to it.

Wonder if i really do practise 50-100 times of drills everyday, will i master the various strokes well? Nvm, i kept reminding myself that i'm placing my security in the Lord and not in coach. How coach judge me is not how God would. So why bother. ☺

Fact that i discovered about myself today: I really do love staring into space, especially when i'm troubled. Hmm.................

what we could have been, 7:27 AM.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Manhattan with parents today!!! My fav ☺

what we could have been, 12:39 AM.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

This is what we do during our pw time ☺

Charthum and i. hahaha the happy/sad/angry faces kinda failed. Laughing at our own expressions when we were taking these pics in the library.

Thank God for my pw group ☺ Though there are unpleasant times and it's not the group with the greatest chemistry, but one will always make the best out of what they have. And i appreciate them alot.

Still stuck with my I&R. Why so fail. No, it's more like why am i not putting more effort for the final pw document??? Need some inspirations to generate good ideas. Shall talk it out with my friends tmr and hopefully some spark will come out from the discussions.

Filled my stomach with all my favourite food today. Sizzler, gongcha, bobo's fried rice ☺ Thanks jx for the gongcha treat! Reward of being a nice person who always lend my lecture notes to him. Pays to be nice ☺

Idon'tknowhowtophraseinwordsandidon'twanttohurtanyonehelpmelordgivemewisdom

what we could have been, 7:34 AM.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Played Captain's ball with 12S411 for two periods today for our self-initiated class bonding session. SO FUN!!! haha really, there wasn't any segregation and everyone just played altogether. Though we were very smelly and sticky after playing O:

Spot our happy faces!!! ☺☺☺

Miss Lim raged at us at 1pm cos some of us left for home and didn't stay until the official release time at 2pm. Stormed out of class and came back 10 mins later where she said a very short speech before we continue to do our pw again.

Went out of school to satisfy my hokkien mee craving with Kaymin @ Whitesands kopitiam. Kinda regretted cos i can feel the gravy getting pushed back up into my throat after bending down a few times to pick up my ball.

Squash was horrible.

I guess i didn't have the right attitude to begin with. He said i suck, as usual. (though i know deep down he meant 'you should practise more'). He stretched our CCA time by 1/2 hours, leaving us dog-tired, but i know his intention was just to train us a little more and it does not matter to him whether he gets paid or not. He nagged at us, shared with us his long grandfather stories, just so to inspire us to train on our own and ignite the passion for squash.

Ok fine, while typing the above paragraph, i felt guilty for how i treated him today.

1. I stared at the floor while he was talking, very much on purpose

2. I walked out to drink water because i didn't want to play those lousy shots and see him, taking my own sweet time

3. I kept yawning towards the end when he was sharing his grandfather stories, BUT it wasn't on purpose! i was really drained and i did try my best to hide my face when i yawned

Still, i think the worse part was that i wasn't listening to him. I refused to, and of course deep down i was talking bad about him.

BUT THE BEST PART IS................... yup in the midst of all the %^&$@#!* in my heart, i was praying to God! yay ☺ if not i would really have broken down or sth. ok no i will really hate squash and walk out of court, give him the black face and never to be back again. haha fine, i'm exaggerating.

Was singing the 'desert song' to myself and i really felt peace in my heart. I didn't felt that agitated, and i begin to see things from a different perspective. When the line 'I will bring praise, I will bring praise, no weapon formed against me shall remain, I will rejoice, I will declare, God is my victory indeed is he' showed in my mind, like that of a karaoke tv screen, i felt really thankful for a coach to stand before me and teaching our team.

I can't perform up to expectations when someone is harsh on me. Kept my mind and heart busy by praying and singing worship songs to reject all his scoldings and naggings. Work like wonders! Just like how a bullet is unable to penetrate through the hardest steel, God's presence was able to keep me away from nasty disturbances. PEACE ☺

Called my dad to fetch me home, making me feel slightly better. And i'm gonna make my resolution now.

1. Change my 'princess' temper and be more open to negative comments

2. Practise Squash everyday, or at least once every two days. I NEED TO IMPROVE.

Ok yes, go chem! Things will change for the better so long as you are willing to make the change ☺

what we could have been, 6:38 AM.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

'Too much to consider, let's just enjoy life'

what we could have been, 11:22 PM.

Hearty breakfast with couzzies and popo!

Had a good laugh at Gladys who weighed a hundred ton back then HAHAHA

Watched Enchanted last night!!! hahaha how i miss those fairy tales and disney days. They taught us so many moral values and how we should appreciate the things around us.

Discussing about jess's birthday celebration in jan and we got all so excited. It's gonna be her 21st birthday!!!! While Germaine and i are going to be 18 next year ☺ We are gradually growing older & i can't imagine us attending each other's wedding in the near future! HAHA this is hilarious.

what we could have been, 2:05 AM.

Friday, October 12, 2012

Got back my promo results and it was kind of disappointing. Admit i didn't study alot, but i did put in the effort to start my revision early and organise my things well. I guess the biggest problem was the self-limiting beliefs i have for myself.

Others may aim for As and Bs for their exams but i was only aiming for a pass. When i don't study alot, i worry that i may not pass; but conversely, when i study alot, i worry about gaining those 'attention'. I don't like the feeling when your friends around you go 'oh wow you did so well/ you so smart' and give you the i-don't-know-what facial expression is that. But hey, if one does well, i believe he/she did put in their heart and soul into studying and such comments are so disheartening.

Yes, and in order to avoid such stuffs, i'd rather remain at the average score forever and ever......... but how can this work?? These self-limiting beliefs got to stop, and i keep dragging myself down, thinking that i don't have to/don't have the ability to be one of those high-scorers. I feel lousy. I feel uncomparable to others. And this does not apply to academics only, in other aspects of my life too.

I.must.get.through.this.and.i.feel.better.letting.it.out. ☺

On the side note, why is my favourite cheesy meltz taken off the menu!!!!!!! (insert millions of sad faces and letters of complain to kfc)
Seriously......... i need a proper explanation.

Nonetheless, shepherding with Germs today was enlightening and i don't feel like i'm alone in this. Thank God for her! ☺ Squash this week was fun with the girls! Though it can be tiring and exhausting, nothing beats being in a team and practising with one another.

By the way,

Happy birthday to my retarded Denise!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

Though it's belated (10/10), but whoooo continue to be a fruit loop in a world of cheerios!

what we could have been, 7:59 AM.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

It got me thinking recently. I really enjoy times when i get to think and reflect about my own life. Guess we are all susceptible to emotional times, especially girls. Times when we think about how the outcomes may be different if we were to make a different choice back then. Or times when we are confused about how we feel about another party. Or probably times when we feel insecure about ourselves.

I love reflective moments, yet the more i think, the more vex i get. So sometimes, i guess it's better to let it out and share it with your best friends ☺Met up with my favourite girl-friends and i really do feel better talking it out. Though they don't know what's on my mind (cos i really think there's alot on my mind), but like a spaghetti, the thoughts that were intertwined start to straighten out.

In hope that i'll get a clearer mind of everything that is happening now soon ☺

Anyway, i really miss my long hair! Though there are times that it was really dry, but it's so much easier to manage!! Now it curls at my shoulders and what's more, my fringe isn't really co-operative too. Miss those times when my hair was better managed.

Dreading this upcoming week where lessons end earliest at 5pm and many additional stuffs after school that will stretch for idk how long (roar). Weather sucks so much recently. It keeps raining and i couldn't go for my run, feel so suffocated not running!!!

what we could have been, 4:57 AM.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANA!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

Rosa and Dana

hehehe really happy to see them again and we did our favourite thing....... sit down and talk!!! HAHA yeah what else right, nothing can beat that.

Went out for shopping with Mabel today, and brought her for service too. Love Pastor Jeff and i hope Mabel do enjoy her first time in a church ☺ Drank gongcha at tam and sat at the hk cafe where Mabel's friend works.

Oh gosh met two unreasonable people today. One was a crazy uncle who shoved me with such great strength at Bugis street that i bumped so hard to the lady behind me for no good reason, and the other was a little boy who scribbled on Dana's card when Mabel and i left to buy a small slice of cake.

WHY ARE THERE SUCH PEOPLE??!!!

And there was this guy who puked into a plastic bag on the bus (i can't explain how gross it is) ok pause, why am i so judgemental??

Shucks i need some self-reflection grrrrrr.

But then again, i think i'm a clean freak so i classify such stuffs as major turn-off.

By the way.................

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERENICE!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

She's the one in the middle. Hope you had a great great day yesterday!!!! Love you like forever and always. ☺

what we could have been, 9:29 AM.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Had pepper lunch for promos celebration on tues. Super nice but i was so full!!! Honestly it tasted saltier than the usual, but yup that's not the point.

Audrey Nerissa Qiyin Kaymin

HAHA Vione!

Woop woop my friends are so cute HAHA.

Long day today, though the speakers for Cyber Wellness and Sexuality Education talk were highly enthusiastic. Glad that school ends at 12.20pm tmr and i'm gonna meet Denise for Manhattan!!!!!!!

☺☺☺

I'm so in love with this smiley face............ ☺

what we could have been, 8:15 AM.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

The timetable for tmr sucks. And i think it will suck all the way till the end of the year haha gosh we are always doing the most redundant and pointless stuff after exams. Sexuality education and pw lecture which will last for so long. I don't think we will even pay much attention (not referring to pw of course) unless the speaker is engaging enough.

Going to school to enjoy the company of my friends and wait till the teachers review the solutions to us. Oh yes promos are over!!!!!! Woop woop really happy :) though i can nua as much as i like now, i don't feel that comfortable doing nothing at all. Supposed to do my pw tonight but........ i guess i'm a bit swayed to packing my clothes instead HAHA i shall do it tmr.

Went to Weiyeat's friend's father's wake today. Really emphathetic about his situation. A sudden car accident. A sudden misfortune and his dad is gone forever. But i really learn alot from wy on how to console someone who is in pain/ moaning. 'It's not about cheering the person up from the outside in, but to be on a level that we can understand how he/she feels, that's the greatest comfort'. Yupp life's short so we gonna make everyday count.

On the side note, finally saw Jamie chua!!! Meh. haha idk why she keep making that noise. Crazy girl. Gonna receive a call from Rosamund soon! we can chat till out hearts' content cos promos are over yeah baby!!!!!! ☺☺☺

what we could have been, 6:49 AM.

Monday, October 1, 2012

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MABEL!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

Hope you enjoy your special day and i'll cherish our 4 years plus friendship (which is obviously still counting) hahahaha muacks muacks muacks

what we could have been, 2:33 AM.