Friday, October 12, 2012

Got back my promo results and it was kind of disappointing. Admit i didn't study alot, but i did put in the effort to start my revision early and organise my things well. I guess the biggest problem was the self-limiting beliefs i have for myself.

Others may aim for As and Bs for their exams but i was only aiming for a pass. When i don't study alot, i worry that i may not pass; but conversely, when i study alot, i worry about gaining those 'attention'. I don't like the feeling when your friends around you go 'oh wow you did so well/ you so smart' and give you the i-don't-know-what facial expression is that. But hey, if one does well, i believe he/she did put in their heart and soul into studying and such comments are so disheartening.

Yes, and in order to avoid such stuffs, i'd rather remain at the average score forever and ever......... but how can this work?? These self-limiting beliefs got to stop, and i keep dragging myself down, thinking that i don't have to/don't have the ability to be one of those high-scorers. I feel lousy. I feel uncomparable to others. And this does not apply to academics only, in other aspects of my life too.

I.must.get.through.this.and.i.feel.better.letting.it.out. ☺

On the side note, why is my favourite cheesy meltz taken off the menu!!!!!!! (insert millions of sad faces and letters of complain to kfc)
Seriously......... i need a proper explanation.

Nonetheless, shepherding with Germs today was enlightening and i don't feel like i'm alone in this. Thank God for her! ☺ Squash this week was fun with the girls! Though it can be tiring and exhausting, nothing beats being in a team and practising with one another.

By the way,

Happy birthday to my retarded Denise!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

Though it's belated (10/10), but whoooo continue to be a fruit loop in a world of cheerios!

what we could have been, 7:59 AM.