Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Played Captain's ball with 12S411 for two periods today for our self-initiated class bonding session. SO FUN!!! haha really, there wasn't any segregation and everyone just played altogether. Though we were very smelly and sticky after playing O:
Spot our happy faces!!! ☺☺☺
Miss Lim raged at us at 1pm cos some of us left for home and didn't stay until the official release time at 2pm. Stormed out of class and came back 10 mins later where she said a very short speech before we continue to do our pw again.
Went out of school to satisfy my hokkien mee craving with Kaymin @ Whitesands kopitiam. Kinda regretted cos i can feel the gravy getting pushed back up into my throat after bending down a few times to pick up my ball.
Squash was horrible.
I guess i didn't have the right attitude to begin with. He said i suck, as usual. (though i know deep down he meant 'you should practise more'). He stretched our CCA time by 1/2 hours, leaving us dog-tired, but i know his intention was just to train us a little more and it does not matter to him whether he gets paid or not. He nagged at us, shared with us his long grandfather stories, just so to inspire us to train on our own and ignite the passion for squash.
Ok fine, while typing the above paragraph, i felt guilty for how i treated him today.
1. I stared at the floor while he was talking, very much on purpose
2. I walked out to drink water because i didn't want to play those lousy shots and see him, taking my own sweet time
3. I kept yawning towards the end when he was sharing his grandfather stories, BUT it wasn't on purpose! i was really drained and i did try my best to hide my face when i yawned
Still, i think the worse part was that i wasn't listening to him. I refused to, and of course deep down i was talking bad about him.
BUT THE BEST PART IS................... yup in the midst of all the %^&$@#!* in my heart, i was praying to God! yay ☺ if not i would really have broken down or sth. ok no i will really hate squash and walk out of court, give him the black face and never to be back again. haha fine, i'm exaggerating.
Was singing the 'desert song' to myself and i really felt peace in my heart. I didn't felt that agitated, and i begin to see things from a different perspective. When the line 'I will bring praise, I will bring praise, no weapon formed against me shall remain, I will rejoice, I will declare, God is my victory indeed is he' showed in my mind, like that of a karaoke tv screen, i felt really thankful for a coach to stand before me and teaching our team.
I can't perform up to expectations when someone is harsh on me. Kept my mind and heart busy by praying and singing worship songs to reject all his scoldings and naggings. Work like wonders! Just like how a bullet is unable to penetrate through the hardest steel, God's presence was able to keep me away from nasty disturbances. PEACE ☺
Called my dad to fetch me home, making me feel slightly better. And i'm gonna make my resolution now.
1. Change my 'princess' temper and be more open to negative comments
2. Practise Squash everyday, or at least once every two days. I NEED TO IMPROVE.
Ok yes, go chem! Things will change for the better so long as you are willing to make the change ☺
what we could have been, 6:38 AM.
